*WARNING* This particular posting may get somewhat deep and I will apologize for that up front. Sometimes we post happy things like how much we love karaoke, and other days we just don't feel like karaoke...like today.
Yesterday I took a huge leap of faith...I put in my notice at work without anything concrete on the back burner. It's not something that was done irrational because someone made me mad one day, it's something I've been thinking about for quite some time. In the last week my husband and I came to the conclusion that it was indeed time.
It has been 3 years since we have spent an actual holiday with our family. We've put work always in front of them. This year with the opportunity to spend both Thanksgiving and Christmas with our family, I had a huge decision to make after finding out last week that the current team I work on works Thanksgiving day. Grant and I also take the week after Christmas off to have Christmas with our family and this year he cannot but instead gets Thursday the 22nd through the 25th off. At my place of work this is not an option, again leaving me with a difficult decision. As Grant and I have been taking this relationship class at church, and learning about the importance of every relationship in our life; deciding what I want to remember about the decisions I made in my life, I decided to choose family. Grant said to me last night "Trudy, God does have bigger and better things for you."....Man, I hope he's right! Having faith is putting all your trust in God that he knows what is best and and trusting him to do so... so here it goes=D As many of you can relate, comfort in one's life and surroundings is an amazing thing that keeps us easily distracted from what God may really want for us. Career wise, I always thought God wanted me to be a wife, mother and take care of the roost. When I found out he had decided differently, and that was what I wanted, I had to decide what my purpose was. I'm still deciding but came up with using my positive energy to create positiveness in others. When I see that I just cannot do that anymore where I'm at and the negativity is having it's affect on me instead, I feel it's time to move on. I posted earlier how I'd love to be a receptionist and be the one who greets people as they come in and somehow make an impact on people's day with cheer. Seriously though, have you ever walked into an office setting, was greeted by a grump who had her way by setting your mood for the day???...or quite possibly a sales clerk anywhere can have this impact.
I just want to clarify that this is not easy for me. It seems because I am the type of person who does always think about how I'm going to affect another and have decided that in life it's very important to wear that happy face not only for others but for yourself I get pegged as "the girl who's always happy" Yes, there is a time for us all to be sad and show others other emotions as well and I do this. People always say, "your always so happy" "Are you ever in a bad mood?" To that I often think to myself, 'person, put yourself in my situation where no one that I know of in my family cannot have children but me. I have to look at pictures everyday on FB, Christmas cards etc of everyone having fun with their children and being blessed daily by what the child in their life does and living the life I've always dreamed of and then you tell me if you think I'm happy all the time' I have to go out and find a job that I don't really want to do, but because this is what God has chose for me instead of just giving me what I want, I have to do what normal people do at my age...work outside the home. The idea of crafting, belonging to mommy groups, picking my kids up at school and having them run to the car is what I have to accept is not in the cards for me at this point in my life when I want it to be. This is where I tell you that my faith can move mountains because with my faith I get down in the dumps often about this but it keeps me strong at the same time and able to stay positive knowing that God does have some sort of plan for me and that in itself is exciting!
TOLD YOU IT MAY GET DEEP!
For those of you who are a friend of mine on facebook I posted a portion of this earlier. I thought it was a good read and was relevant for me right now.
First Thing Every Morning
If you had a bank that credited your account each morning with $86,400 - with no balance carried from day to day - what would you do? Well, you do have such a bank...time.
Every morning it credits you with 86,400 seconds. Every night it rules off as "lost" whatever you have failed to use toward good purposes. It carries over no balances and allows no overdrafts. You can't hoard it, save it, store it, loan it or invest it. You can only use it - time.
Here's a story that drives the point home.
Arthur Berry was described by Time as "the slickest second-story man in the East," truly one of the most famous jewel thieves of all times. In his years of crime, he committed as many as 150 burglaries and stole jewels valued between $5 and $10 million. He seldom robbed from anyone not listed in the Social Register and often did his work in a tuxedo. On an occasion or two, when caught in the act of a crime by a victim, he charmed his way out of being reported to the police.
Like most people who engage in a life of crime, he was eventually caught, convicted and served 25 years in prison for his crimes. Following his release, he worked as a counterman in a roadside restaurant on the East Coast for $50 a week.
A newspaper reporter found him and interviewed him about his life. After telling about the thrilling episodes of his life he came to the conclusion of the interview saying, "I am not good at morals. But early in my life I was intelligent and clever, and I got along well with people. I think I could have made something of my life, but I didn't. So when you write the story of my life, when you tell people about all the burglaries, don't leave out the biggest one of all... Don't just tell them I robbed Jesse Livermore, the Wall Street baron or the cousin of the king of England. You tell them Arthur Berry robbed Arthur Berry."
Here are six terrific truths about time:
First: Nobody can manage time. But you can manage those things that take up your time.
Second: Time is expensive. As a matter of fact, 80 percent of our day is spent on those things or those people that only bring us two percent of our results.
Third: Time is perishable. It cannot be saved for later use.
Fourth: Time is measurable. Everybody has the same amount of time...pauper or king. It is not how much time you have; it is how much you use.
Fifth: Time is irreplaceable. We never make back time once it is gone.
Sixth: Time is a priority. You have enough time for anything in the world, so long as it ranks high enough among your priorities.
*What you've just read is an excerpt from First Thing Every Morning by Lewis Timberlake.
