Every year I throw myself a birthday party. I go all out with food, drinks, Karaoke...probably about $200 worth of party. When I was young my sister Dawn did all the birthday stuff. My mom usually always forgets my birthday. I call her every year to remind her and get a happy birthday from her because if I didn't I would be bitter for weeks she didn't wish me a happy birthday so I just make it happen. I've always been the one to remember birthdays and to try and make them super special for people. I feel birthdays are super important...it's the one day you can feel a reason to spoil yourself and feel uber important. I love that I can get people together and have a good time.
This year, for the first year I can remember I'm not throwing myself a party. I'm kinda going to skip my birthday. I'm even going to work on my birthday. I get to stressed out days before cleaning and making everything fall into place only to be so super stressed out the day of and I just don't want to do it anymore. Then there's always the people who make up the excuses not to come or say they will be there instead of just saying it doesn't work out for them. Or you find out the people you thought were important to you don't even make an effort to come and you feel disapointed. I just need to concentrate on a no more drama 2011. I always have lots of fun at my parties but just need a year or few off from it. Don't worry people I throw parties for, I still plan on it=D
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Monday, January 10, 2011
2011 thus far
Why is it at the start of every new year we have these high expectations? January 1st is just another day on the calendar eh? Well I to fall in the trap of believing that January 1st is some miracle day. This year I had simple resolutions as well; start a craft club, go to California, keep on the path of natural eating, etc.. I'm not asking myself to drop 50lbs or anything crazy like that! Well we went back to MN and ND the week after Christmas and stayed in homes of cat owners. I wheez, cough, sneeze, lets just say it's an icky mess but the stay is cheap. Well since we've been back I've missed 2 days of work in 2011 which I believe I only missed one last year. Having to call into work is one of the most painful things for me to do but like Grant said sometimes you have to worry about yourself and just get better! I think the kitties did havoc on my immune system and left me open to more icky things to come (this is my conclusion anyway). Last week our faithful little ford focus decided to poop out on us. We feel it may be more than we want to put into it but until we get it to the car service people we are back to one vehicle. We got by with one vehicle for 6 years but now that we have had the glory of owning two it's a hard thing to get used to.. especially when I had to be to work at 4am last week. Our hours never match up and with retail are never the same day to day. My brother in law passed away last week which has caused some commotion in an already unstable family, then yesterday I find out my niece had her appendix removed. REALLY TWENTY ELEVEN! So with all of that California is out of the picture because getting another car by the summer is now on the to do list and having to be open to both our schedules now craft club may have to wait as well.
Now with all that being said and sounding quite beaten down I'm staying positive knowing God has his plan and I'm still feeling that wonderful feeling of blessings for no serious illness for Grant and I, being able to put food on the table and having shelter! I have the love of a wonderful man and two super cute puppies and although I have an annoying lingering cough I still have overall good health! 2011 is not going to get me down and I'm going to face it with immense positivity so watch out!
Hope everyone is having a GREAT new year!
Now with all that being said and sounding quite beaten down I'm staying positive knowing God has his plan and I'm still feeling that wonderful feeling of blessings for no serious illness for Grant and I, being able to put food on the table and having shelter! I have the love of a wonderful man and two super cute puppies and although I have an annoying lingering cough I still have overall good health! 2011 is not going to get me down and I'm going to face it with immense positivity so watch out!
Hope everyone is having a GREAT new year!
Sunday, January 2, 2011
New Years Resolution
As most of you reading this, I'm making a few resolutions for the new year.
Give More
Spend Less
Go to California
Quit Retail
Continue on the road to Living a more organic healthy lifestyle
Start a craft group
Read more
Give More
Spend Less
Go to California
Quit Retail
Continue on the road to Living a more organic healthy lifestyle
Start a craft group
Read more
A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds: "What does love mean?"
The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think...
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"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love."
Rebecca - age 8
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"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth."
Billy - age 4
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"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired."
Terri - age 4
_____
"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK."
Danny - age 7
_____
"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss."
Emily - age 8
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"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen."
Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)
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"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate."
Nikka - age 6 (we need a few million more Nikka's on this planet)
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"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday."
Noelle - age 7
_____
"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well."
Tommy - age 6
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"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling.
He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore."
Cindy - age 8
_____
"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken."
Elaine - age 5
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"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford."
Chris - age 7
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"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day."
Mary Ann - age 4
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"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones." (Now THIS is love!)
Lauren - age 4
_____
"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you." (what an image!)
Karen - age 7
_____
"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross."
Mark - age 6
_____
"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget."
Jessica - age 8
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And the final one...
Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked about a contest he was asked to judge. The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child.
The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife.
Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there.
When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said,
"Nothing
, I just helped him cry."
The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think...
_____
"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love."
Rebecca - age 8
_____
"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth."
Billy - age 4
_____
"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired."
Terri - age 4
_____
"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK."
Danny - age 7
_____
"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss."
Emily - age 8
_____
"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen."
Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)
_____
"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate."
Nikka - age 6 (we need a few million more Nikka's on this planet)
_____
"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday."
Noelle - age 7
_____
"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well."
Tommy - age 6
_____
"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling.
He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore."
Cindy - age 8
_____
"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken."
Elaine - age 5
_____
"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford."
Chris - age 7
_____
"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day."
Mary Ann - age 4
_____
"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones." (Now THIS is love!)
Lauren - age 4
_____
"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you." (what an image!)
Karen - age 7
_____
"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross."
Mark - age 6
_____
"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget."
Jessica - age 8
_____
And the final one...
Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked about a contest he was asked to judge. The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child.
The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife.
Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there.
When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said,
"Nothing
, I just helped him cry."
Saturday, December 11, 2010
20 Reasons I'm Blessed to Have Grant in My Life
1. He holds me accountable for my actions
2. He encourages me to better myself
3. He just laughs at me when I do something natural like fart, belch, or dig for gold;)
4. He puts up with my Peter Pan complex of never wanting to grow up.
5. He loves dogs as much as I do
6. Faith is important to him
7. Family is important to him
8. He loves our neices and nephews to the end of this world and took them in and loved them as well as let's me take off summers from work to be with them.
9. He is super smart which is good because well if you know me you know I need someone who makes up for my lack of
10. He puts up with my crazy shinanigans like inviting everyone to come and live with us;)
11. He makes me laugh by being goofy in many ways.
12. We both enjoy dvring many shows and watching them with not so good for us food and mt.dew
13. He has wonderful hygeine. I know this is funny but I think it's nice he showers, shaves and makes himself smell nice everyday.
14. He dressed up as a gnome with me at Halloween...c'mon y'all, that's pretty awesome;)
15. He sincerly puts up with my crazy family.
16. He's non-judgemental. He's going to like pretty much anyone
17. He does most all the laundry
18. He will put me ahead of sports on tv.
19. He let's me throw my karaoke parties and helps me out with them even though they can get a little spendy
20. He tells me aprox 100 times a day he loves me;) it's good to hear it!
Happy 6th Anniversary to the most fantabulous Man! I'm so truly blessed to have you in my life! It's so super to be married to my best friend and get to spend my life with you!
2. He encourages me to better myself
3. He just laughs at me when I do something natural like fart, belch, or dig for gold;)
4. He puts up with my Peter Pan complex of never wanting to grow up.
5. He loves dogs as much as I do
6. Faith is important to him
7. Family is important to him
8. He loves our neices and nephews to the end of this world and took them in and loved them as well as let's me take off summers from work to be with them.
9. He is super smart which is good because well if you know me you know I need someone who makes up for my lack of
10. He puts up with my crazy shinanigans like inviting everyone to come and live with us;)
11. He makes me laugh by being goofy in many ways.
12. We both enjoy dvring many shows and watching them with not so good for us food and mt.dew
13. He has wonderful hygeine. I know this is funny but I think it's nice he showers, shaves and makes himself smell nice everyday.
14. He dressed up as a gnome with me at Halloween...c'mon y'all, that's pretty awesome;)
15. He sincerly puts up with my crazy family.
16. He's non-judgemental. He's going to like pretty much anyone
17. He does most all the laundry
18. He will put me ahead of sports on tv.
19. He let's me throw my karaoke parties and helps me out with them even though they can get a little spendy
20. He tells me aprox 100 times a day he loves me;) it's good to hear it!
Happy 6th Anniversary to the most fantabulous Man! I'm so truly blessed to have you in my life! It's so super to be married to my best friend and get to spend my life with you!
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Life as I know it
This time of year really brings out all the emotions we can so easily bottle up the rest of the year it seems. I see children excited at the music machine at work while listening to childrens Christmas music and I got tears in my eyes. If a child smiles at me the right way I get tears in my eyes. I just have this huge hole waiting to be fullfilled by a child. Until we are in a stable place in our lives I don't want to start adoption beings I want to adopt a school aged child.
Then there's the wishing my father was still here and remembering how he used to sit back in his chair watching all the kids open up their gifts just taking it all in. I miss my father often and not necessarily more so on the anniversary of his death or birthday. It's little things like not being able to pick up the phone when I want to discuss politics, or August, 15th when I would call and see how the day was going beings he was an accountant. It's been two years and I know it will continue to get easier. As my sister Dawn said once, "I'm happy for him, just sad for us." Thinking of being with the lord and reunited with so many who passed before him and not having to use crutches does help.
Then there is the poor me has to live in Wi. I'm suppose to be the positive "we are where we are suppose to be person" but that's just not working for me anymore. I want to be with family on special occasions and not be held back by a job that pays very little. I was recently told I could not have Dec 4th off which is when my cousin comes from Mpls and we make soy candles. I've never had a problem getting the first Saturday off, not even at the other target where sales are double! I was also told I couldn't have the 26th of Dec. off. Again I've never had a problem getting the week off after Christmas and being back to work new years. From the get go I've been unhappy at this Target and don't know what I should do. I plan to sit down one of these first nights and make out a resume so I can get something else lined up. I used to love working for Target and never really thought about the horrible wage and the fact anywhere else will pay for experience and not start you out at the same rate as someone who is starting their first job. But all the thoughts come into my head...what if we move again soon, I don't have a finished degree, and so on. In my last post I stated I'm in the process of making a dream book and I need to keep cutting things that brighten me up and keep me dreaming that there is more. It's not about living among all the crazy packer people, it's about being close to the people that are my family and friends that I don't get to see more than once a year. No job is worth it to miss out on special events in their lives anymore.
I'm so blessed to have the husband I do to be my Best Friend and companion. He hurts when I hurt and I know understands me and the things that I go though. He said last week to me that it hurts him when I'm sad and feeling this way because he knows this isn't me.
.........so to answer the question that I get asked often, "do you ever have a bad day or get sad?" "Your always so happy, you must just have the perfect life!" There it is folks, I to have bad days. Yes I may be blessed with a husband that is to me the best and two puppies who think I'm the best dog mom but I don't get to share the joys many of you do with a child, be with my family during holidays and special events, which yes do give me sad days and make me down sometimes. I do consider myself a positive person and being able to try and look at things with the theirs a reason for everything outlook but that doesn't mean that every once and awhile I don't get down. I can tell you though that my faith and Gods love has gotten me through the last 3 years here in Wi, the ups and downs with my family and has given me the strong relationship that I feel Grant and I have.
Then there's the wishing my father was still here and remembering how he used to sit back in his chair watching all the kids open up their gifts just taking it all in. I miss my father often and not necessarily more so on the anniversary of his death or birthday. It's little things like not being able to pick up the phone when I want to discuss politics, or August, 15th when I would call and see how the day was going beings he was an accountant. It's been two years and I know it will continue to get easier. As my sister Dawn said once, "I'm happy for him, just sad for us." Thinking of being with the lord and reunited with so many who passed before him and not having to use crutches does help.
Then there is the poor me has to live in Wi. I'm suppose to be the positive "we are where we are suppose to be person" but that's just not working for me anymore. I want to be with family on special occasions and not be held back by a job that pays very little. I was recently told I could not have Dec 4th off which is when my cousin comes from Mpls and we make soy candles. I've never had a problem getting the first Saturday off, not even at the other target where sales are double! I was also told I couldn't have the 26th of Dec. off. Again I've never had a problem getting the week off after Christmas and being back to work new years. From the get go I've been unhappy at this Target and don't know what I should do. I plan to sit down one of these first nights and make out a resume so I can get something else lined up. I used to love working for Target and never really thought about the horrible wage and the fact anywhere else will pay for experience and not start you out at the same rate as someone who is starting their first job. But all the thoughts come into my head...what if we move again soon, I don't have a finished degree, and so on. In my last post I stated I'm in the process of making a dream book and I need to keep cutting things that brighten me up and keep me dreaming that there is more. It's not about living among all the crazy packer people, it's about being close to the people that are my family and friends that I don't get to see more than once a year. No job is worth it to miss out on special events in their lives anymore.
I'm so blessed to have the husband I do to be my Best Friend and companion. He hurts when I hurt and I know understands me and the things that I go though. He said last week to me that it hurts him when I'm sad and feeling this way because he knows this isn't me.
.........so to answer the question that I get asked often, "do you ever have a bad day or get sad?" "Your always so happy, you must just have the perfect life!" There it is folks, I to have bad days. Yes I may be blessed with a husband that is to me the best and two puppies who think I'm the best dog mom but I don't get to share the joys many of you do with a child, be with my family during holidays and special events, which yes do give me sad days and make me down sometimes. I do consider myself a positive person and being able to try and look at things with the theirs a reason for everything outlook but that doesn't mean that every once and awhile I don't get down. I can tell you though that my faith and Gods love has gotten me through the last 3 years here in Wi, the ups and downs with my family and has given me the strong relationship that I feel Grant and I have.
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Dream Book
We all have dreams and aspirations...right? Well my cousin Tricia was showing me her dream book she created and wanted to do more with. I started cutting images and quotes of my dreams and things I would like to see myself become. Tonight I will sit down, get out a binder, pretty paper, scissors, a glue stick and my dream pieces and put this together and hopefully watch my dreams unfold into reality.
"Far away there in the sunshine are my highest aspirations. I may not reach them, but I can look up and see their beauty, believe in them, and try to follow where they lead."
--Louisa May Alcott
"Follow your dreams, for as you dream you shall become."
--Anonymous
"In dreams and in love there are no impossibilities."
--Janos Arany
"Far away there in the sunshine are my highest aspirations. I may not reach them, but I can look up and see their beauty, believe in them, and try to follow where they lead."
--Louisa May Alcott
"Follow your dreams, for as you dream you shall become."
--Anonymous
"In dreams and in love there are no impossibilities."
--Janos Arany
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