20 Reasons I'm Blessed to Have Grant in My Life

1. He holds me accountable for my actions
2. He encourages me to better myself
3. He just laughs at me when I do something natural like fart, belch, or dig for gold;)
4. He puts up with my Peter Pan complex of never wanting to grow up.
5. He loves dogs as much as I do
6. Faith is important to him
7. Family is important to him
8. He loves our neices and nephews to the end of this world and took them in and loved them as well as let's me take off summers from work to be with them.
9. He is super smart which is good because well if you know me you know I need someone who makes up for my lack of
10. He puts up with my crazy shinanigans like inviting everyone to come and live with us;)
11. He makes me laugh by being goofy in many ways.
12. We both enjoy dvring many shows and watching them with not so good for us food and mt.dew
13. He has wonderful hygeine. I know this is funny but I think it's nice he showers, shaves and makes himself smell nice everyday.
14. He dressed up as a gnome with me at Halloween...c'mon y'all, that's pretty awesome;)
15. He sincerly puts up with my crazy family.
16. He's non-judgemental. He's going to like pretty much anyone
17. He does most all the laundry
18. He will put me ahead of sports on tv.
19. He let's me throw my karaoke parties and helps me out with them even though they can get a little spendy
20. He tells me aprox 100 times a day he loves me;) it's good to hear it!

Happy 6th Anniversary to the most fantabulous Man! I'm so truly blessed to have you in my life! It's so super to be married to my best friend and get to spend my life with you!

Life as I know it

This time of year really brings out all the emotions we can so easily bottle up the rest of the year it seems.  I see children excited at the music machine at work while listening to childrens Christmas music and I got tears in my eyes.  If a child smiles at me the right way I get tears in my eyes.  I just have this huge hole waiting to be fullfilled by a child.  Until we are in a stable place in our lives I don't want to start adoption beings I want to adopt a school aged child. 

Then there's the wishing my father was still here and remembering how he used to sit back in his chair watching all the kids open up their gifts just taking it all in.  I miss my father often and not necessarily more so on the anniversary of his death or birthday.  It's little things like not being able to pick up the phone when I want to discuss politics, or August, 15th when I would call and see how the day was going beings he was an accountant.  It's been two years and I know it will continue to get easier. As my sister Dawn said once, "I'm happy for him, just sad for us." Thinking of being with the lord and reunited with so many who passed before him and not having to use crutches does help.

Then there is the poor me has to live in Wi.  I'm suppose to be the positive "we are where we are suppose to be person" but that's just not working for me anymore.  I want to be with family on special occasions and not be held back by a job that pays very little. I was recently told I could not have Dec 4th off which is when my cousin comes from Mpls and we make soy candles.  I've never had a problem getting the first Saturday off, not even at the other target where sales are double!  I was also told I couldn't have the 26th of Dec. off.  Again I've never had a problem getting the week off after Christmas and being back to work new years.  From the get go I've been unhappy at this Target and don't know what I should do.  I plan to sit down one of these first nights and make out a resume so I can get something else lined up.  I used to love working for Target and never really thought about the horrible wage and the fact anywhere else will pay for experience and not start you out at the same rate as someone who is starting their first job.  But all the thoughts come into my head...what if we move again soon, I don't have a finished degree, and so on.  In my last post I stated I'm in the process of making a dream book and I need to keep cutting things that brighten me up and keep me dreaming that there is more.  It's not about living among all the crazy packer people, it's about being close to the people that are  my family and friends that I don't get to see more than once a year.  No job is worth it to miss out on special events in their lives anymore. 

I'm so blessed to have the husband I do to be my Best Friend and companion.  He hurts when I hurt and I know understands me and the things that I go though.  He said last week to me that it hurts him when I'm sad and feeling this way because he knows this isn't me. 

.........so to answer the question that I get asked often, "do you ever have a bad day or get sad?" "Your always so happy, you must just have the perfect life!"  There it is folks, I to have bad days.  Yes I may be blessed with a husband that is to me the best and two puppies who think I'm the best dog mom but I don't get to share the joys many of you do with a child, be with my family during holidays and special events, which yes do give me sad days and make me down sometimes.  I do consider myself a positive person and being able to try and look at things with the theirs a reason for everything outlook but that doesn't mean that every once and awhile I don't get down.  I can tell you though that my faith and Gods love has gotten me through the last 3 years here in Wi, the ups and downs with my family and has given me the strong relationship that I feel Grant and I have.

Dream Book

We all have dreams and aspirations...right?  Well my cousin Tricia was showing me her dream book she created and wanted to do more with.  I started cutting images and quotes of my dreams and things I would like to see myself become.  Tonight I will sit down, get out a binder, pretty paper, scissors, a glue stick and my dream pieces and put this together and hopefully watch my dreams unfold into reality. 

"Far away there in the sunshine are my highest aspirations. I may not reach them, but I can look up and see their beauty, believe in them, and try to follow where they lead."
--Louisa May Alcott

"Follow your dreams, for as you dream you shall become."
--Anonymous

"In dreams and in love there are no impossibilities."
--Janos Arany

DailyGood: 66 Ways To Grow Without A Garden

I have wanted to get into indoor herb gardens. I love the idea of being able to grow some things without having to have a garden

DailyGood: 66 Ways To Grow Without A Garden

Lessons on Life | Lessons on Life

HOw inspiring as Grant and I move forward to lose weight.

Lessons on Life | Lessons on Life

KarmaTube: Insight Prison Project

Thought this was amazing the way this program is helping to keep these men from becoming repeat offenders!



KarmaTube: Insight Prison Project

Description of an Ideal Life

So I've been going through this folder today that I have quotes and uplifting ideas and thoughts in. I came across a piece of paper that has scribble on it. I probably was watching a show and got these ideas...not sure. Anyhoo, it's called description of an Ideal Life:

*Be clear about what you want
*Live in the present
*Visualize with emotion what you want
(use great posture while doing so)
*Listen to uplifting music
*Dance around
*Take action
*become a manifesting magnet
*Write 5 things daily you're grateful for

So I'll go ahead and try to do these things. I do find that I know what I want but then make an excuse to why it cannot be done. Examples are: Adoption...the excuse is that it costs a lot of money and we just move around to much to see the process through. Finish my degree...the excuse is that we just move around to much for me to finish...see a trend=) Lose weight..the excuse is I'm just happy with who I am. I am working on the weight loss by joining the club and watching what I eat and choosing water over other drinks. The other two are things I need to work on because my life is at such a stand still. I definitely visualize with emotion what I want. I want more than anything to be a stay at home mom and wow does that bring on the tears! I want to get a job that to me has meaning and am finding it hard without a finished degree...the water fountain of tears starts again. With Grant's job and our main source of income I find it hard to go after what I want.
Listening to uplifting music is easy for me along with the dancing! I put on this sorta fairytale with you by Tori Amos or If you want to sing out sing out by Cat Stevens and I'm a dancing machine!
Take Action..YIKES, I'm not good at this...lets move on...........
Become a manifesting magnet...what in the world is this..let me google it...(5 minutes later) I didn't get much out of what this is...anyone care to explain. Moving on to Writing 5 things a day your grateful for. I used to do this and of course like most things I start..I don't finish. I will start today with this entry.

1.Grant! He is such a blessing in my life.
2.Lucy and Lola..they make me smile and make me feel loved when I'm home alone and feel so alone
3.Nieces and Nephews I would do anything for them. I want them to be so much more than I believe they think they can. The feeling I get from them is a feeling of accomplishment that I CAN make a difference in the life of a child and I do deserve to be a mother. I'm not always there whenever they need me but I do believe that every one of them does know I'd do whatever I could to the best of my ability to help them.
4.God! He is actually number one and is on my list everyday. Without my faith in God life would be empty and meaningless. I wouldn't have Grant, family, puppies etc without God making it all happen. Everyday he reminds me he is on my side and looking out for me!
5.computer...yes it's materialistic but I'm so thankful that I'm able to afford to have one to stay in touch through all the moves and hustle and bustle of daily life.

So as I continue to go through this folder and continue to find ways to uplift my spirit and go through life with optimism I will continue to share. Lord only knows we can all use a little help in our daily lives to stay optimistic and move forward with intention!